human admiration and love are two totally different things, believe it or not my entire life I had the hardest time differencating between the two........so, have come up with two truths to replace the old faults. 1) no matter what I have said, done, or felt, I have never been in love. 2) love does not exist. look at me, pondering about this shit at my age when Arthur Rimbaud figured it out when he was sixteen years old. I gotta get my shit together.